10:01 PM

It’s been a while
a month since the last time I write on blog
Went out to a beach club with Shinta to clear this heavy mind of mine
Went to a place where everything is blue, Azul. And I start daydreaming…

For about months I am in a very depressive state, sad and every good feelings vanished. I lost my self-assurance, lost my vision, confused, blurred, fallen. I feel like I am not me those days and I really hate those gloomy days back there. Broke. I was broken down into pieces. And it was like ugh.

It was in the middle of November, last year, when I felt this kind of feeling. Lost my confidence, I started to doubt myself, I was worried about almost everything, I started to think that something bad is going to happen. I felt worthless. I felt unwanted. I felt like I was betrayed. And my heart ached so hard. And I never thought that someone who I love the most can hurt my heart this much. And my stupid head keep persuading me. And I am drown into that damaging assumption. It was you who broke my heart, but it was my thought that ripped me down even worse. I don’t want to look back and stuck within the blues for years. Everything is going to be alright. Maybe not today, but eventually.

Dear March, please give me the good news I am waiting for, please

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DARLING VINTAGE | a blog written by Dias Predani since 2016.

Welcome to the dreamy world of Dias Predani. Here to share about personal wardrobe choices, pretty places, random thoughs and experiences in her life. La vie en rose, how she sees though her rose-colored glasses to look at the positives in life and not to dwell with the negativity.